Uncertainty

Ventures are such a drain. They’re cycles of highs and lows, mornings of elation, the possibility, nights of vulnerability, and an unspoken uncertainty. That evasive word: uncertainty. Its seems to define us all. I’ve realized that at every stage in life there’s always some form of that element rationed into our endeavors. We just fully don’t know. Will it take off? Is this job the right fit for me?  Do I really want to?

We grow up in a special, conventionalized fashion. School defines us, and its routine becomes routine. In the terminal end of  10th grade, as May comes around, as AP tests come to a grand close, and the sun more intense, we gear up for summer. However, with certainty. We all know that we’ll have to return in the Fall for school and the next year.  We complain about it, but as you grow older, one realizes that it was one of the most comfortable, relaxed feelings.

Soon, this routine dissolves, we graduate, and all of a sudden the world becomes unforgivingly real. The independence rockets, your decisions define you, and your passions steadily begin to reveal themselves. You begin writing your own story.

Embrace the uncertainty, fall in Love with it, become the best of friends with your own heart, and, for the first time, really ask yourself what you want. Understand that you are a “work-in-progress”, that there’s you and that there’s the person you want to be, and that it’s only logical for you to work towards the latter. Give yourself time. Give yourself room. Remember, always, that everything needs room to grow.

I walk  into Doe Library on the UC Berkeley campus often, and I always walk past this celestial Mark Twain statue. He has a book in his hand, and casually sits on one corner of this bronze bench, leaving space and a warm, open invitation for someone else to sit down.  I walk past him, and as I escape into my own privacy, I can’t help but think about all the people who’ve walked through the threshold of Doe throughout generations. Who knows the incessant number of homeless people, Nobel laureates, immigrants, entrepreneurs, Lovers, and dreamers, from all over the world, that have accepted his subtle invitation:

“Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn’t do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover.”  Mark Twain, 1907

– Mayer Zahid

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